Seorang-seorang….

28 September 2011

Jalan seorang-seorang, duduk seorang-seorang, naik bas seorang-seorang, balik seorang-seorang… My lecturer touched on this recently( i think she’s talking about a senior that might have a little autism)

Well, I have to admit that beside 4 the most, I’m almost seorang-seorang all the time(because of them, my life shine a little brighter). Sometime I felt alone, really wish to look for some for companion. Is there anyone willing to listen and share my thought?

Anyone out there???

Eye Operation

28 September 2011

Today daddy had his eye operation done. It is heart breaking to see the wound.

I was asked to drop the eye drop into his eye. I’m scared, to see the wound. Ieven dream about it during my nap. I think I make no chance to be a doctor, as I think I’ll faint seeing those wound. Moreover want me to stich it, no way…. Better stick to my engineering….!

忠：实

28 September 2011

为何人，不能忠？

今天的我，又看到人，原来是那么的脆弱，那么的抵挡不住诱惑。

我看到了他，一次又一次的在我面前背叛她。为何他，是一个花心萝卜？

我实在看不下去了。。。即使你有多孝顺，多勤劳，多帅，最终你会被你那‘没良心’背叛。

我，以后不会找像你那样的伴侣！

花心萝卜，大骗子！

People who inspired me!

27 September 2011

“When you don't get a miracle, become one”-Nick Vujicic

He is Limbless, yet He is now travelling around the world… My idol!

There is one day I complaint something to my brother, Steven. He told me 别计较酱多，学到的是自己的！I’ll remember this, keep it deep inside my heart!

One day, I’m going to study abroad, one day…

别计较酱多，学到的是自己的！

Bro… @ My Sisters

27 September 2011

There’s separation, disconnection and parting occurs. I can’t really describe the  feeling but somehow, I’ll reconnect the friendship between us, as soon as possible!

Busy Busy Busy!!!

27 September 2011

I’m too busy lately…

Busy with my final year project (having no clue to do it), I’m stress! California bearing ratio is making me nuts, driving me crazy.

Busy with my dad’s eye operation. He’s having a cataract operation tomorrow, may God bless him for the smooth and success operation! 

Having tremendous  headache thinking only my project. I hope to finish it as soon as possible or else I’ll never have a restful night! I dream of nightmare, often recently…

Dare to fail!

27 September 2011

I started to read books recently, it is amazing! Well, I’m not a bookworm, I don’t even like to read. But somehow, someone inspired me to read, he is my Master Shifu (it all started when he showed me his final year thesis and said to me that he actually read a lot of books and understand it). It amazed me on how he able to finish the entire thesis by his own word. It is by reading, he said.

Reading, is the source of inspiration, it is the only way to get more knowledge. For the first time in my life, I actually read the entire book( imagine how thick it is). It is a good ( i mean GREAT) book of inspiration, giving me the new definition of failure. There’s always quote saying that we must go through failure before we can really be success. It is so true, and the examples of people who failed and standing up again, making me “whoa”! It teaches me how to fail, and standing up again.

I often felt like a failure, and I often failed in making a good decision. But somehow, I believe everything happens for a reason, and probably God have something greater for me.~~Amen

“When a true samurai goes into battle, he is prepared for death but more often than not it is the opponent who meets death.”

Blood Donation….We love, care and give!

24 September 2011

I have been waiting for this donation for so long( I mean since the day they announce on the news, I quickly mark down the date into my calendar so that I won’t forget the exact date for the donation). I came as early as 10 am, but it seem like a lot more is earlier than me….

Here is how it looks like when I’m arrive…. Crowded with people…!

Came here with my buddy, Farina (leave for her dinner), Fit3, and Pikachu!

Let’s talked about the process of blood testing. I tested twice actually, first I was rejected because of low haemoglobin in my blood. I’m so frustrated as I wanted so much for the goodies bag(seems like selling my blood rather than donating it,haha!). Then I go and have a set of McValue lunch, and returned for the second attempt! I made it for the blood test this time, but not for my blood pressure, again, I was told to walk (run and jump around) for a while. Damn, WTH my blood pressure was only 100/60, so damn low! After a while i went back for the second pressure test, I made it with 120/80! Haha…

I’m A type, what about yours?

Cheering during transfusion

The banner of the campaign. Probably will be my last blood donation at Sabah.

Received goodies bag. But I suppose to get a McD voucher and a tuna bread, due to out of stock, I’m given 2 pocket tissues to replace the bread… Ouhh, my McD! Haha!

Another collection of certificate…. Ngeh3…

Cameraman, a pitiful job!

19 September 2011

Once again, I’m being a fool today. Being a camera man for them, realizing that I’m not part of them (it’s not the first time I’m being abandoned and I just have to act nothing happened but a happy feet, I’ve used to it), it feels suck!

Actually, I don’t mind being a cameraman, there’s nothing wrong holding the camera and capturing other. But there’s a problem here, I don’t get any credit for showing up at your show, instead being neglect by you and your gang. So, this is what I got for travelling all the way from my house to KK, this is what I got?!

What the heck, there’s no more way I’m gonna do that again, not even if you beg me. Seriously, who the hell will gonna do that for you? You are too obvious in favouritism! Nope, I’m done here. I’ll just have to be patient until 17 October. Oh God, give me the strength and patient to go through these hard time, give me the faith and wise that I needed before my anger explode furthermore. Amen…

“Not being valued or appreciate, better quit up early before getting anymore lame ass scolding and mumbling”

Nice quote huh?!

Malaysia Day vs. 兀兰之路

16 September 2011

人才外流,究竟为何? 这就要问,大马为何酱偏心。

今天，也是马来西亚日，国家也不知独立了几年。但为何新加坡却比大马更加繁荣呢? 大马，其实很多人才，但为何外流呢？因为留在大马，得到的，永远是不公平的待遇，贪污的公务员，就连我自己，也对大马失去了信心。

马乃下，对我实在不公平，没给与我同等的机会。今天的我，并不光荣。腐败的政府，贪污的官员，要我怎么光荣的了？

瞧着吧，总有一天，不用靠‘你’，我也会出人头地的！

~未来的憧憬~

16 September 2011

一张文凭，一顶毕业帽。。。

 

最近大学录取名单出炉了，身边不少的朋友也陆陆续续抵达大学报到了。也有同学去到英国的Scotland深造。不知为何，这一切，让我觉得自己好失败，好失败。。。我，是否后悔了当初的选择？心里清楚自己要干什么吗？我，很矛盾，真的很矛盾。未来，会是怎样？我，又会在哪儿？

最近想了再想，自己究竟寻找着什么？POLI毕业后，会到哪里？工作，人工会是多少？心中有着不少的疑问。

终于，我找到了。我需要的是目标。有了目标，将会有追求的意志。我的目标，就是要大学毕业，硕士毕业，甚至是博士毕业。我要追求学问，知识。我，要成为一个知识渊博的教授，一位有名的工程师，一个有钱人。我，要出国留学，见识外国的一切。

要，想，并不能实现我的梦想。要实现梦想，现在我需要做的，就是把握机会，争取知识，把梦，变成事实。FACEBOOK的活动，也应该停止。手里，也应该有个好书。白日梦，免了。

POLI毕业了，我会工作两年，在这两年里，我要把债务还清，定期的存款，好让我有一日，能够实现出国深造的梦想。在这两年里，我要累计经验，学着独立，面对挑战及困难。

两年，瞧着吧！

The legion’s return… Haha…

11 September 2011

It’s been a weeks, since my shifu went back for his study.

According to his description -

“Went out with my dad, scaled mountains, tried the hottest steamboat soup, laughed off Final 5, worked on Louise 2, visited Texas, SushiTei, PartyPlay and a coffee shop that feels like a bank, makan kuih bola for 5 days of girls volleyball duty, talked crap at Tg. Aru and Saifuddin's Raya OH, rebooted Badminton, koyak habis with volleyball, prelude to end-year XPDC, found out that cows go to prison, saw giants, monsters, midgets and sleeping captains, finally explored Karamunsing Capital, finally got my KitChaiPing, continued the Alat Kebesaran tradition and got 4 kids, all in 10 days. Good times. Thanks for reminding me that I still have a family to return to.”

Have a lot of fun, especially when I’m down because of those “People who doesn’t care about other’s feeling”. It is the most happiest time spent together with red crescent buddy.

He ever asked me, what make me stay in the society while crappy things happens. Well, I got my answer after searching and looking for it. It’s not because I’m idiot (somehow still I’m an idiot for staying). The answer toward this question is simple, because I enjoy the process of working together, especially with the one who inspired me. I enjoy duty with them (only apply to specific people), the process and everything. I enjoy duty with shifu, he is the one who always encourages and uplifted my morale.

We’ll always adjourn after duty and sort of things, but remain as friends afterward. Thanks for everything…!

Went to beach and have some chit-chat.

Followed by testing for tough XPDC route.

Dinner together.

Gerigitan for volleyball.

Party-playing.

Not to forget the Majlis penyerahan alat kebesaran.

Nasi Lemak 2.0

11 September 2011

I just watched this at Growball today, and it’s not bad for a local production. I have been noticing him since the Negarakuku controvercy. His spirit and determine in making this movies is undeniably impressing!  It did inspired to make my own video though. Maybe one day, I might become a great director. Haha…

He’s coming to 1 borneo, but I can’t go and see him!!

 

I super like the theme song for this!! <3

Support Namewee forever! You are the best…

Hari Raya Open House for DKA

11 September 2011

I went to my friend’s open house today. For the first time in my life, I felt the Raya festive season.

My fellows D.I.C.E, it means a lot to spend three years studying together. All of us had gone through a lot of experience, sweet, happiness, sour, rough time. In this period, I gained a group of besties, especially 4themost. It’s an unforgettable moment, studying in the same class, copy pasted assignment, struggles for final exam, playing sport, outing and recently open house. All of these will be kept in my deepest memory.

We’ll be graduating soon, very soon that we don’t realize it’s been three years. So, bear in mind that whatever happen in the future, we must keep in touch in whatever ways.

I <3 DKA!

Life, it’s always full of unfairness…

11 September 2011

On 30 August 2011, I’m being scolded for nothing, loss of dignity, self-esteem, sense of worth, while full of sense of humiliation. You probably don’t notice how this day affected my life, and my point of view toward you and the society. On this day, you’ve totally lost my respect. You don’t earn my respect. Monkey see and monkey do, why you scolded me while you are the one who started and always do those kind of things (it’s not a big deal, just do not want to specifically mention it here).

I cried, on this day. The mighty staff sergeant, collapsed. Though, I’m not as strong as I think I was. My master shifu, Mark persuaded, encouraged and gave me the confidence, which I’ll never get it from anybody else in the society. Thanks to him, I’m able to stand strong facing these craps. ‘We adjourned as teammates, but continues as friends’ he said.

I cried over it, I don’t satisfy with what you have done toward me. You don’t even remember what you’ve done in the year 2010, during WRCD. Let me remind you, remember the morning of the rehearsal day, you called me “xXxXxX” over the walkie-talkie and everyone is hearing it. Imagine what I felt that time, being embarrass in front of all, have to act like nothing but a happy feet. You don’t even care my feeling, why should I care about yours. I’ve got your back, who’s got mine?

Well, I guess it is time for us to adjourn. I better leave this sad, depressing, heartbreaking place before getting any unwanted scolding.

This is it… I’m sick of postponed… I withdraw…!

11 September 2011

Withdraw, doesn’t mean I quit.

I waited for a year. Still, all I get is postponed and postponed, and I’m sick of it.

It’s been a year I learnt Karate, and I don’t get any feedback but your lame excuses. I’m sick of waiting, maybe I wasn’t good to deserve an upgrade. Or maybe, I’m just nothing in your class but a dust, where you can’t see my effort, nor my existence.

Link of my first post about my journey of karateka, http://faithjasper.blogspot.com/2010/08/karate-do.html

From now on, I withdraw. This is it, officially withdraw from your class, you cold blooded sensei that doesn’t even care how I felt being a yellow junior belt among the kid (which still silly and playing around during your warm-up). Your don’t care how I felt, my hard work, my practice, my effort, still stepping on me calling me ‘chicken shit’! You don’t even know how much I care about the upgrading, the colour of my belt. Being a yellow among them is a shame for me, don’t you know that! I disappointed, each and every time you postponed the date of upgrade. Why, am I not deserved it, why?

I’m totally frustrated yesterday, as you postponed the date again. And this time, I make up my mind, which it seems to be the best option. Thanks for all the teaching, and making me more perseverance in my path to become a great master. Thanks, for delaying me, testing my patience toward learning a thing, without even a single feedback. I will remember all of these craps, keep it deep inside my heart.

By the way, except for the crappy upgrade, you are a good sensei. Hopefully I’ll meet up a greater sensei in the future.

Looking forward for our fight in the future., bon Voyage!

Folding up my Gi… Forgetting what I’ve experience. It’s heart brokenly sad to be in your class.

Will continue my journey, It definitely wouldn’t stop at here…

Maybe, this is not a fist of fury, but some day it will definitely be the fist into your eyes!