God

30 March 2010

Footprints    

One night I had a dream--
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord
and across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints,
one belonged to me and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in my life.
This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you would walk with me all the way,
but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
"I don't understand why in times when I needed you most,
you should leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never, never leave you
during your times of trial and suffering.
"When you saw only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

Is Him real? Does He exist? Is He really beside me as the poem written? My curiosity toward Him is never end. I have so many question marks about Him. I always wanted to know Him more, but I can't really believe in my belief. I need guidance. But still I know that He is protecting me as I'm encountering trouble and danger.

But there is a thing that I don't understand. Why! Oh God, why many of my friends who claim themselves a "Faithfull Christian" shows such bad example toward me? They show hypocrite, money based and many evil satan attitude. Why?!