他，毕业了！

十月二十七日

今天从面子书的知他终于毕业了。。。
名牌大学的奖学金得主，前途无限的光明。。。
五年没见了，不晓得他。。。近来还好吧？
很高兴，我只能默默的祝福你。。。

Accident

3 Oct 13

Today is a sad day. An undesirable accident happened at my construction site. Two worker are being hit by the lightning and one of them died.

The accident happened around 3pm as it was going to rain. But there are thunders and lightning everywhere. The lighning hit the tower crane hoisting chain which attached to a concrete bucket. Concreting work is on going, and the victims was holding the bucket trying to adjust the bucket for concrete pouring. They collapsed immediately.

They are brought to GF, and Rifdie, Jimmy, Chong, Iskandar was trying to help by giving him cpr. He breathed, but after 10 minutes, the breathing stopped. They cant affort to save him.

It is the first time I saw such accident, and hoped it will be the last.

Life is too fragile, and unexpected.

:(

Jouney to Greatness

12 September 2013

 

Greatness. What greatness mean to you? Or what success mean to you?
I remembered during the Journey to Greatness trip organized by PPC at February this year, we were being asked. In my opinion, Greatness is not define only by ourself, by also by other.

And today, I felt that archieved a little success. At least someone sees me, and what I'm capable off. Well, it is so suprise that with less than 2 years of working experience, people started to 'digging' me. I believe opprotunity will get to us, if we are serious in whatever we do. Just stay focus, importantly,将心比心,which mean treat other like what you want other to treat you.

Aim of Life

10 September 2013

 

Few day ago, my brother asked me a question. What is my aim of life? What is my main target of life? This question has been wondering in my mind since the day. I keep asking myself again and again. But I can't find the answer.

 

Until yesterday, I read an article regarding a soldier dad helping his wife delivery their own baby. I can feel how touching it is the moment, the precious moment of holding the baby in thier hand.

1+1=3

Imagine how beautiful God's creation it is. And I guess that the feeling that most of us were looking for. A feeling of HOME.

 

I always thought by getting a degree, I will have a better life, better future. But after chasing and chasing, running and running, what do we have in the end? Can the degree guaranteed me a HOME? I bet it can give me the HOUSE, but can the HOUSE feels like HOME?

 

Sometime, I felt loneliness. I have a house, a room here. But I can't remember how warmth a home is, as I worked late night everyday, trying so hard to forget how cold my room was, when I'm back from work. 

 

Anyway, I will continues to complete my degree, but in the meantime enjoying my precious youth time.

 

 



My Great Superior...

 

10 September 2013

 

Again, it's been long long time since i abandoned this blog. Today i want to blog about my boss, my technical manager Mr. Lam JS.

 

He has been my boss since the first day of my work. I can still clearly remember how scared i am when i saw him for the first time at Intergra tower, on 3rd of Jan 2012. Today, I'm am still very afraid of him. Not because he is fierceful, but fear out of respect.

 

Without realizing, time passed by quickly. It's been 1 year and 8 months, I'm glad and pround to have him as my boss.

 

He is a very COOL and IMPRESSIONLESS guy. Normally, we will not see any impression on his face when it is working hours. But throughout these years, i knew that he was helping me all the way, from developing my skill, and fight for my promotion and increment.

 

11 September 2013 will be his last working day. Somehow, I felt fearful and loneliness. Feared that I'll be going through my journey alone, while there's nobody else can see my potential.

 

Lastly, all the best to him for his brand new future. We shall meet soon.



 

 

夜景

五月十三日

感觉上好像好久没更新部落格了。。。
最近发生了一连串的事，压的我喘不过气来。。
后天，我又要搬家了。。。搬了第四次家，感觉好累。。。好累。。。
记得有人跟我说，在越亮的地方，就越难看见星星散发的光芒。。。现在的我，几乎看不见任何一道光芒。。。我好累。。。好委屈。。。好孤单。。。好寂寞。。。好压力。。。有时真的想回家，不想继续呆下来。。。不知如何是好。。。
与朋友同事的关系日渐恶化，我不懂的怎样去跟他们沟通。。。mr.liew说，脾气要改，要用另外一个方式与人沟通，放下尊严。。。
千万不要放弃。。。

我想要一个家

23 April 2013

今天的我很down,很不开心。。。
升职加薪后，工作量增加，压力把我压的喘不过气来。。。好想回家，好想收拾包袱买张机票回SABAH去。。。但我知道，我老爸没钱，没能让我在家当个小公主。。。
这些日子里，要人抹黑我，踩我，践踏我。。让我感觉的非常难受，有时真的很想放弃，打包回家，一了百了。。。可现实往往是残酷的，我得勇敢的面对。。。
委屈了，今天要哭的，都哭过了。。
我很感谢MR.LIEW,在我沮丧，失落，没目标时，支持我，相信我，鼓励我，教我怎么去面对这些难题。。。谢谢你对我的信任，我很感激你，没有你，哪怕我还是那失落无目标的我。。。
也很感谢MR.CHEAH的一句'忍'。。。
我会忍下去，委屈了，笑笑就会过了。。。

Promotion!

9 April 2013

I CAN'T BELIEVE I HAVE JUST MADE IT!
I AM NOW OFFICIALLY A SITE ENGINEER!
It feels great, really great to reach IT within a year. All the hardship pay off, it did pay off. Of all 400 over staff, i made it, still unbelievable...
I have started working at this company as an ASSISTANT SITE ENGINEER since 3 JAN 2012, within a year i have proofed to my superior that i am capable of doing it. Remember back last year where i am still a newbies, knowing nothing about construction. In just a year, i learnt so much from PPCSB. Thanks for giving me the opportunity. Thanks for having faith in me. Thanks for seeing me. It means a lot to me.
Although throughout these days there are tonnes of obstacle, in which almost take me down, but i will always hold on, and be myself.

I Swear i am gonna be sombody one day!

Lastly, thank God for being with me.

CHAIN OF COMMAND

29 MARCH 2013

Chain of command, where i learned it in year 2005, and thanked God i learned it earlier.
Today there is one person.at workplace, the person i trusted, disobeyed the rule of the chain.
Instead of reporting to her immediate superior, she directly jump two line forward.
I do not want to judge, but as a outsider, it seem really rude, where people would think the superior is not good enough to solve problems.

An Assistant Site Engineer

19 April 2013
Today, i have completed my very first Inpection with clerk of work. It might be nothing to them, but for me, i felt the sense of accomplishment, and it feels real good. Being a project team isn't as easy as i have thought. I have to manage the sub contractor, monitor their work, go for inspection. But i will learn, learn how to be a great Assistant engineer.  :-)

梦想

三月十九日

梦想，是什么？
我哥说，人因梦想而伟大!
在这一个月里，我一直不断的在想，我真正的梦想是什么?我将来要干什么?
或许在工作的一整年，我不断的苦干。。竟然连梦想都给弄丢了。我渐渐的把它忘了，没把它当回事。直到现在，我开始醒觉梦想的重要。。
是它，就是它让我有前进的动力。。早上起来不在赖床，工作起劲，不偷懒。。。我，要把沉睡已久的梦想唤醒。。。是时候改变了。。
在这一个月里，我要好好规划我的人生目标，and FOCUS ON IT!
加油啦！

DEAR DAIRY

28 Feb 2013
Today, i found my diary of year 2009. As i read through it, i discovered that time passed by so fast. It's been 5 years since i last wrote in that little book of secret. Going through the contents, i realized that i have gone through few stupid and silly things.
Well, i wrote about my return, red crescent, friends, family, and most importantly, my Dream. I have put quite some times thinking on this issue. What would i want to be actually? What i target to be when i am 25? Or 30? As i worked throughout the year 2013, i slowly discovered that i am getting numb toward my work. Everyday i am doing the same things over and over again. My executive chairman always said, it is either you have 20 years of experience, or you just have 1 year of experience multiply by 20. Seriousely, i definitely do not want to be in the second option.
My dream is simple. I wanted to become somebody. How many 10 years i would experience in my life? 5? 6? Or 8? My terms of success might be different from other. But surely i wouldn't want to end up becoming nobody for forever.
Today, i might be nobody, as small as an ant. Indeed i am. But i have taken the road least travelled, and put my best foot forward. Someday i will be what  i wanted to be.

HUMAN : FRAGILE

18 FEBRUARY 2013
Mr. LEE, our scaffolding sub contractor passed away few days ago...
How fragile a human being is, just a few weeks ago i sat beside him in our weekly 5 S meeting, and now he is gone forever...
REST IN PEACE...

CNY 2012

二月十八号
回来KL已有一个星期了，但脑海还不断的浮现沙巴的情景。。。历历在目呀。。。
今年的新年，应该是我过得最开心的一年吧。。开心的是，与表弟和好如初，表弟妹个个都长得飘飘亮亮，帅帅的。。。
已有一年没见的爸妈，显得苍老许多。。今年大哥还叫了一声爸爸妈妈。。。可想在他们的心中是多么的开心。。可惜二哥忙着开店而没回来。。其实，在我心里有一个愿望，就是拍个全家福。。可惜一路一来都没这个机会。。。希望明年能够达成吧。。

One step nearer to dream...

16 February 2013
Today is the first day of my school...and a step approaching my dream...
I have always envy with my friends, where they have almost completed their degree while i am still struggle to get entry to my degree apllication..
Sometimes it made me wonder, am i made a wrong decision for choosing politeknik..? But after going through the 3 years diploma study, I would say that i am not regreting it... Through poli i learned so much... So much more that anyone can imagine..
By the way, it feels great to be school again.
I would do whatever it takes to complete the programme...4 YEARS AND HALF WORTH!

Coolest birthday gift ever...!

2 February 2013
I'm officially 23rd years old. Today, I received the coolest birthday gift from kuya... Thanks for the TGIF and the X-MINI... I really love it...

蚂蚁：我

12/9/12

今天的我，好不开心，好郁闷，心情很低落，简直就是跌到谷底。

最近工作很不顺利。已经九个月了，都不知自己做什么，要的是什么。

我有一个直属上司，但到了现在，还是很害怕他。自从MR CHO 走了以后，工作也起劲不来。别人把我当蚂蚁，蚊子，感觉到自己好渺小，很没用。申请的大学，也不录取我。真的好无奈。一连串的坏事，压得我喘不过气来。

好想哭，好累，好无助。

Greatest HOP!

7 June 2012

It’s September, nine months passed since i arrived here KL.

When i was first transferred to Z residence mid of March, I’m kind of worried. Worrying how I’m going survives these two years, what i will actually do at a construction site.

Everything changed when i met i him, Mr Cho, my Head of Project and my sensei. He’s the one who raised my morale, my spirit to work and learn. I wasn’t taught how to read a plan at school, wasn’t taught about PAM 2006. At here,  nobody would exactly see my existence. I am nothing, nobody, worthless. But he sees me, he knew what I’m capable of, and he taught me a lot of things. I’d stay for overtime everyday, as i knew I'm getting some precious knowledge from him.

Unfortunately, not long after i met him, he got a better job offer and had to leave. Oh, how i wished i can follow him. Now, my input is getting lesser and lesser.

Anyway, he’ll stay as the greatest HOP in my mind. Now, and forever.

2012 Resolution

3 February 2012

It’s February of 2012, and I’ve been here alone for 1 month. Living here alone is not as easy as I think it would. I missed my home, my friends, my family, the smell of my pillow, and everything at Sabah.

This year, is the beginning of my journey to become and engineer. Instead of being a real engineer, I was given a position of an ASSISTANT for an engineer. So, being stuck at this position is not really a good thing, that’s why I wanted to further my study once I’ve a chance.

Working at site is totally a different world, from what I’ve imagined. It is almost the same as my practical, but at here, there’s no muddy soil but lot of concrete dust. I was based at Intermark, under an assistant site agent. Here at Integra, I’ve met a lot of new friends, and colleagues. Then there’s an aunt who works as a site foreman, became my closest friend, just like my mak angkat.

I do not know, whether I’ll be enjoying my work here. But one thing for sure, I’ll try my best to survive, just like the cockroach.

There’s a supervisor at my practical place once said, do not care about how much u have to do, or even have to worked overtime, because it’s one of the process of learning. And importantly, I learned more than other people.

This year, I’m gonna make a lot of money. I want learn more, get more experiences. May God be with me.

Lonely birthday

3 February 2012

Yesterday was the loneliest birthday that I’ve ever have.

Nobody know it was my birthday, no red egg, no wishes(except for facebook), no cake, just a lonely cold night, walking alone in the street, just like that.

But then, before the day end, my mak angkat bought me a piece of cake, even it’s just a piece, I’m so happy to have it. :’)