夜景

五月十三日

感觉上好像好久没更新部落格了。。。
最近发生了一连串的事，压的我喘不过气来。。
后天，我又要搬家了。。。搬了第四次家，感觉好累。。。好累。。。
记得有人跟我说，在越亮的地方，就越难看见星星散发的光芒。。。现在的我，几乎看不见任何一道光芒。。。我好累。。。好委屈。。。好孤单。。。好寂寞。。。好压力。。。有时真的想回家，不想继续呆下来。。。不知如何是好。。。
与朋友同事的关系日渐恶化，我不懂的怎样去跟他们沟通。。。mr.liew说，脾气要改，要用另外一个方式与人沟通，放下尊严。。。
千万不要放弃。。。

我想要一个家

23 April 2013

今天的我很down,很不开心。。。
升职加薪后，工作量增加，压力把我压的喘不过气来。。。好想回家，好想收拾包袱买张机票回SABAH去。。。但我知道，我老爸没钱，没能让我在家当个小公主。。。
这些日子里，要人抹黑我，踩我，践踏我。。让我感觉的非常难受，有时真的很想放弃，打包回家，一了百了。。。可现实往往是残酷的，我得勇敢的面对。。。
委屈了，今天要哭的，都哭过了。。
我很感谢MR.LIEW,在我沮丧，失落，没目标时，支持我，相信我，鼓励我，教我怎么去面对这些难题。。。谢谢你对我的信任，我很感激你，没有你，哪怕我还是那失落无目标的我。。。
也很感谢MR.CHEAH的一句'忍'。。。
我会忍下去，委屈了，笑笑就会过了。。。

Promotion!

9 April 2013

I CAN'T BELIEVE I HAVE JUST MADE IT!
I AM NOW OFFICIALLY A SITE ENGINEER!
It feels great, really great to reach IT within a year. All the hardship pay off, it did pay off. Of all 400 over staff, i made it, still unbelievable...
I have started working at this company as an ASSISTANT SITE ENGINEER since 3 JAN 2012, within a year i have proofed to my superior that i am capable of doing it. Remember back last year where i am still a newbies, knowing nothing about construction. In just a year, i learnt so much from PPCSB. Thanks for giving me the opportunity. Thanks for having faith in me. Thanks for seeing me. It means a lot to me.
Although throughout these days there are tonnes of obstacle, in which almost take me down, but i will always hold on, and be myself.

I Swear i am gonna be sombody one day!

Lastly, thank God for being with me.

CHAIN OF COMMAND

29 MARCH 2013

Chain of command, where i learned it in year 2005, and thanked God i learned it earlier.
Today there is one person.at workplace, the person i trusted, disobeyed the rule of the chain.
Instead of reporting to her immediate superior, she directly jump two line forward.
I do not want to judge, but as a outsider, it seem really rude, where people would think the superior is not good enough to solve problems.

An Assistant Site Engineer

19 April 2013
Today, i have completed my very first Inpection with clerk of work. It might be nothing to them, but for me, i felt the sense of accomplishment, and it feels real good. Being a project team isn't as easy as i have thought. I have to manage the sub contractor, monitor their work, go for inspection. But i will learn, learn how to be a great Assistant engineer.  :-)

梦想

三月十九日

梦想，是什么？
我哥说，人因梦想而伟大!
在这一个月里，我一直不断的在想，我真正的梦想是什么?我将来要干什么?
或许在工作的一整年，我不断的苦干。。竟然连梦想都给弄丢了。我渐渐的把它忘了，没把它当回事。直到现在，我开始醒觉梦想的重要。。
是它，就是它让我有前进的动力。。早上起来不在赖床，工作起劲，不偷懒。。。我，要把沉睡已久的梦想唤醒。。。是时候改变了。。
在这一个月里，我要好好规划我的人生目标，and FOCUS ON IT!
加油啦！

DEAR DAIRY

28 Feb 2013
Today, i found my diary of year 2009. As i read through it, i discovered that time passed by so fast. It's been 5 years since i last wrote in that little book of secret. Going through the contents, i realized that i have gone through few stupid and silly things.
Well, i wrote about my return, red crescent, friends, family, and most importantly, my Dream. I have put quite some times thinking on this issue. What would i want to be actually? What i target to be when i am 25? Or 30? As i worked throughout the year 2013, i slowly discovered that i am getting numb toward my work. Everyday i am doing the same things over and over again. My executive chairman always said, it is either you have 20 years of experience, or you just have 1 year of experience multiply by 20. Seriousely, i definitely do not want to be in the second option.
My dream is simple. I wanted to become somebody. How many 10 years i would experience in my life? 5? 6? Or 8? My terms of success might be different from other. But surely i wouldn't want to end up becoming nobody for forever.
Today, i might be nobody, as small as an ant. Indeed i am. But i have taken the road least travelled, and put my best foot forward. Someday i will be what  i wanted to be.