蚂蚁：我

12/9/12

今天的我，好不开心，好郁闷，心情很低落，简直就是跌到谷底。

最近工作很不顺利。已经九个月了，都不知自己做什么，要的是什么。

我有一个直属上司，但到了现在，还是很害怕他。自从MR CHO 走了以后，工作也起劲不来。别人把我当蚂蚁，蚊子，感觉到自己好渺小，很没用。申请的大学，也不录取我。真的好无奈。一连串的坏事，压得我喘不过气来。

好想哭，好累，好无助。

Greatest HOP!

7 June 2012

It’s September, nine months passed since i arrived here KL.

When i was first transferred to Z residence mid of March, I’m kind of worried. Worrying how I’m going survives these two years, what i will actually do at a construction site.

Everything changed when i met i him, Mr Cho, my Head of Project and my sensei. He’s the one who raised my morale, my spirit to work and learn. I wasn’t taught how to read a plan at school, wasn’t taught about PAM 2006. At here,  nobody would exactly see my existence. I am nothing, nobody, worthless. But he sees me, he knew what I’m capable of, and he taught me a lot of things. I’d stay for overtime everyday, as i knew I'm getting some precious knowledge from him.

Unfortunately, not long after i met him, he got a better job offer and had to leave. Oh, how i wished i can follow him. Now, my input is getting lesser and lesser.

Anyway, he’ll stay as the greatest HOP in my mind. Now, and forever.